我是小笨蛋

2009-09-25T03:10:00.004+08:00

Sup peeps, i'm finally back to blog lawl. Sorry for being inactive, was busy mapling / dotaing again haha. Anyway, I've changed servers for now, even though i'm not a GM there yet but w/e lawl. It's a fun server to be in, For more information, just check the link in my link tab.

Server rates:
400x exp
500x meso
100x drop

Great GMs, fun maplers LIKE ME LOL. And events are hosted on a regular basis. Do support it! And if you find it nice, DONATE!

Let me know when you've joined by adding me in game, as usual, my nick's Bitter :D

Ciao~

2009-08-26T04:05:00.001+08:00

Bored Bored Bored! HAHAHA. Okay this is lame :X Nothing to post about. So, i'm just gonna say that I've got a competition later on. SO WHY AM I STILL AWAKE LOL. Alright I'm gonna try and get some rest now. kthxbai!

[V]in-.

2009-08-11T15:00:00.003+08:00

Just came out from jail -_-! Got caught for camera phone in camp and sentenced me to 14 days of hell. Thought alot inside.. And yeah.. I shouldn't blame people for what happened to me, I somehow really deserve it. Attitude towards my buddies, officers, work.. It's time for me to change I guess.

During that 14 days, I missed alot of people. Friends, family, and.. her.
I don't know why, but I suddenly missed her.

*I know it's already been a year.. or maybe more. But it's just not working. I know saying these out wouldn't make a difference. You may not even read this. But yeah.. I still miss you.

`Ah_vIN-`

2009-07-25T11:14:00.004+08:00

No Boundaries - Kris Allen.

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz here I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries..
There are no boundaries..

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am still holding on..
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Wheather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah…

There are no boundaries..
There are no boundaries..~!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Wheather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries..!
There are no boundaries..~
There are no boundaries...

2009-07-08T19:58:00.009+08:00

Here's the picture of my DotA team who won the championship in GameHaven on 190609 (:

Below my team's picture are the players who participated.

Team: Seraph of Ancient

Members :
[V]in.SoA (Me/ Team leader/ End Gamer) *i'm the one squatting in the middle
[A]kira.SoA (Jeremiah, commander/ Carrier, Support)
[V]iper.SoA (Louis, Support)
[M]p3crazy.SoA (Romeo/ Engager)
[J]r.SoA (Jiong Rong/ Support)

2009-07-01T00:22:00.003+08:00

Sup.. back to post again. Anyway, watched Transformers : Revenge of the fallen just now. And i recommend everyone to watch it. Its a super nice movie. Action packed, comedy, drama. Thumbs up for this movie. And i think there will be a Transformers 3. Haha.. Cuz the ending is like.. "THIS IS NOT OVER YET!" ROFL! I luvvvvv Optimus Prime :X Ok.. I'll stop here for now. Bye.

Th past, I miss th past.

2009-06-20T07:41:00.003+08:00

DotA Competition @ GameHaven on 190609:

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! WOOOHOO.

Team: Seraph of Ancient

Members :
[V]in.SoA (Me/ Team leader/ End Gamer)
[A]kira.SoA (Jeremiah, commander/ Carrier, Support)
[V]iper.SoA (Louis, Support)
[M]p3crazy.SoA (Romeo/ Engager)
[J]r.SoA (Jiong Rong/ Support)

Winning team picture will be posted up as soon as i get it (:

2009-06-14T14:37:00.006+08:00

The last part the guy said.. brings back memories..

[There's someone I'm in love with.. Although I can't be with her now.. I'm still in love with her..]

Anyway, latest updates on the server :

(7th June)

Okay, basically here was the deal. We figured that the server would be more fun if we had some kind of economy. So we decided to do a full server wipe. Yes we know what you all did to get your characters to that level.So this is what we will do. We make make your first to reborns EASY. Meaning we will sponsor EXP events and whatever it takes to get the ball rolling for you.Along with the wipe comes all this:

- Took out Gm scrolls from Duey
- Took stuff out of Mia
- Redid Spinel
- Redid Fredrick
- Disabled "trade" in a few maps
- Disabled drop and exp cards
- GM scrolls no longer take slots
- Added Maple Island Back ;D
- SuperRB checking is now added
- Super RB is now 1k Stats and 100k WATK
- Beta Hats are changed to normal
- New Client V3 (With Files)
- Changed some more maps around
- Some quests on maple island work, some dont
- 2 Fully Loaded Coke Machines
- Changed smega spam
- Change Avi smegas
- New Hair and Eyes
- Fixed more donator commands
- Fixed donatorlistChanged A lot of commands
my stats Warp / Goto Heal GM Commands
NPC Chagnes are as Follows Spinel
- Spindle
- Mia
- Duey
- Fredrick
- Martin
- Every Maple Island

YES, Maple island is back, and yes you have to go through it. I suggest pick up some money.

(10th June)

- Gach tickets are droppable from monsters
- GM scrolls drop from a few monsters
- More monster drops (Ores, stimulators ect)
- New Gach NPC's
-Each Gach was made by a GM
- Fixed Character names (can now be 4 characters long)
- Added monster stuff
Skills
Buffs
Healing
Summons
- Removed boss map monitors (didn't work and crashed server)
- Added magic scales (acts as intended)
- Added super range up (pets)
- "You haxxor" no longer kills people, but still popup spams them. (rangedAttack failsafe)
- GMs can't !level themselves past 200.
- Item drops work better (pets don't pickup your stuff, people can pickup your meso, etc)
----- UPDATE 6/9/2009 -----
- GM scrolls act as intended, same with regular
- Pet pickup range changed -> reduced and Y value halved
- Magic Scales work (do NOT distribute to players)
- v68 cashshop weapons auto-drop
- !spawn lets you create monster spawn points
- HT was fixed
- Blocked Gach and Scales
- New Gach thanks to GM's
- New Rankings Page(www.unholyms.com)
- Added s SuperRB counter
- New Box Event
- Changed smega spam
- Change Avi smegas spam
- New Hair and Eyes
- Fixed more donator commands
- Fixed donatorlist

-End of update-

So what are you waiting for? :D Join our friendly community now! server's link is @ the right hand side ^^

2009-05-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

Pictures i took at the "wedding" XD :

Me and the 2 newly weds ;x

Me and my lovely cousin ! :D

Me and my cousin's Husband ! :D

Me and my lovely cousin's sister ! :D

-End of post- Tired lols.

2009-05-17T23:41:00.006+08:00

Maple Pics :

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warning, this link leads to some n1b GMs LOL!

Lawl xD

2009-05-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

UPDATES.

Went out to meet some maplers today o: and went out with jeanette yesterday night.
Pictures :

retarded, my army clothes are in sight! omg

lol wtf

me and jeanette ;D

k end of post LOL.

2009-04-24T19:34:00.020+08:00

Wassap lol . Please feel free to support my Maple Private Server. Link below. My ign is Bitter haha . It's not a bad server, loads of fun events, friendly maplers and GMs (like me LOL), fun commands, rates are 400x exp, 8x drop rate, 300x meso rate.

http://www.unholyms.com

Mmkkays . If you joined, kindly PM me. thank you :D And have fun ^^

A little something to share :

It's Rather Easy For You to Fall in Love

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

2009-04-15T19:01:00.001+08:00

Since when have we lost
The wonderful things that we need somewhere?
I fear the connection to [your] heart
& i buried myself with my body
During those days [when] i [lied] everyday about my fear,
You were already in my heart

If we can think deeply
That someday time will end here,
I thought that will always love you
& i'll be holding out my hand [to you]

Love is such a scary thing
Thats why we run away as we search for it
It no longer has anything to do with being an adult or being a child

This feels just like its my first love
So much so that i feel like it must be fate
Not even in my dreams do i feel
The way i do when we hold each other

If we can't meet each other,
I couldn't laugh this way [like when i'm with you]
This year, the happiest thing is
Being able to be by your side

2009-04-14T19:33:00.001+08:00

Hey there. I'm back to post. Sorry for being inactive so long. anyway, this link is for everyone to watch.. I'm seriously touched while watching it . And it reminded of a certain someone. But it doesn't matter anymore does it ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvjZ6VkLuCM

2009-01-28T18:31:00.002+08:00

Hi ! Life's been good so far . And guess what? I'm slowly getting my friends back (: starting with 2 of them who're in my top 10 list .. one of them always gave me good advise when i was down, encouraging me along the way. And the other.. she's not only top 10.. she's top 3.. and she's very very special to me (: I missed her so much when she was gone, now that she's back, you don't know how I'm feeling now. What made her so special, is because we've shared so much things with each other, our personal life like love; friends; family. We cried, laughed, smiled, and alot more together. I'm so glad to have her back in my life. I hope that from this point on, everything continues to go smoothly. And get more of my friends back. And to her : Thank you for forgiving me fer everything i did in the past. I'll treasure you more and never go back to my old ways as promised. I love you bestie (: Like I said before, you're everything to me :D So don't leave me again.

Seems like life's going smoothly again?;

2009-01-24T19:25:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm finally back blogging in my dead blog? Lol. I'm gone for so long because i've been training for my DotA compy which is coming up in March. Wish me luck ehs? Haha. Been busy with army too :l Anyway, happy early chinese new year all :3 Bye.

Bored ;

2008-12-14T02:11:00.002+08:00

Hoho, interesting day yesterday . My buddies didn't forget me after all :D brought me out for lunch and watch movie . You 2 are the longest friends i've ever had? 5 years? 6 years? no idea x; Thank you for not giving up on me , thank you for changing me all these years , thank you for advising me throughout our friendship , thank you for the belated birthday celebration .

By the way , I'm learning how to play guitar now x; I'm gonna learn it well so that I can perform with my buddies one day ;D One of them is my teacher wo0t x; Alright , gonna go sleep now before i can't wake up for tomorrow's duty -_- nice b'dae present from my officer -.- Telling me that i need to take over duty on my boring birthday night . BYE!

Goner ;

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-12-13T01:14:00.002+08:00

My birthday's seriously screwed . I was alone the whole day . Tell you something pathetic , less than 10 people remembered it and sent me birthday wishes . Other than my sister who bought me a birthday cake after work , i guess i'm seriously forgotten by the rest . Alright , i admit it , I cried during my birthday . Bye .

Sucker ;

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-12-11T19:23:00.002+08:00

1 more day to my birthday .. Expectedly I'm spending it alone . Well , what can I say ? Prolly what people said was right , my attitude is so fucked up everyone left me . It's too late to change . Its too late for anything . I'll just let nature take it's course , and see what it does to me in the future . Goodbye.

Life is like a rollercoaster ride , there are ups and downs . But for me , i guess downs are much more than ups.

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-12-09T04:33:00.005+08:00

I need to report to camp later and i'm posting now lols . I can't sleep . And i've got no idea why . Maybe I'm just having too much in my mind these days . Thinking alot , about my life , friends , family . Why is this , why is that . So many questions , so little time to figure out the answers . Well , what can i say ? Life still have to go on yeah ? Just started cabal private server with a bunch of old buddies , they're the ones who've never gave up on me all these years . Maybe this is what people call true friends .. Oh , and my birthday's coming in like 3 days ? I wonder if I can celebrate it .. haha .. I'm getting tired so I shall stop here for now .. Goodnight .

Questions ; Answers ?

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-12-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered, why the world is turning upside down?
Have you ever wondered, where have us humans gone wrong?
Have you ever wondered, what should we do to improve our lives now?
Have you ever wondered, if you would die alone one day with loads of regrets?
Have you ever wondered, if you'll ever change for the better?
Have you ever wondered, where's the one who will complete the next half of your life?

Just a random post.

Loneliness ;

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-12-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

I need a new blogskin x.x Anyway, today was a great day. It was really happening LOL . I wrote a short story in an online forum. And guess what, PEOPLE LIKE IT HAHA . They're asking me to continue the story because i wrote it halfway through x: Some said it's touching hehe. I'm can be a good story writer? O: Anyway, 10 more days to my birthday.. I wonder if i can celebrate it lol. And with who.. :l

Time passes in a blink of an eye . this sentence does make sense to me now. So much unlucky things have been happening this year.. and they flew by. Friends fly with the time as well. Maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to find out what's wrong with me. Because i seriously don't like my life now . I hope a miracle happens. Bye.

Anxiety,

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-11-29T22:39:00.004+08:00

Look at the posting dates LOL$&#*%^(^&* it's been so long since i last posted . Anyway, I've just finished my course .. and it was fun x: But the wasted thing was, I'm just short of 1 point for marksman ): Oh , and these few days were okay i guess .. nothing much happened . So there's not much things for me to say . To my friends out there , hope you all are doing fine and well .

*My birthday is coming soon . Happy b'dae to me ~ Happy b'dae to me ~ yeah I'm singing it to myself because I'm celebrating it alone . lol .

I wonder how you've been doing ..

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-10-25T10:30:00.004+08:00

Anyone missed me ? :p I'm back from tekong wahahaha x: but going back on monday again . So far , everything's fine i guess .. losing contact with my friends .. i don't know why either .. but oh well (: i hope all of you are doing well yeah ? I'll stop here for now .. furthur updates will be coming later (:

Why is it that I'm suddenly missing you so dearly ? ..

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-10-05T18:54:00.004+08:00

Hey hey yo yo ! Good day bloggie and everyone (: I'm in camp for duty now .. so I asked for permission to use the internet for awhile .

First things first , me and ---x3QUEEN broke up (: It's okay tammy~ online relationship doesn't really matter does it ? haha :D Just take care of yourself then x: If there's anything , you know where to find me or how to find me :D

Secondly , introducing my SiaoBu , Sarah LOL . Nabuey want to post about me first? NO WAY ;D and don't bully me~ . Always Siaopeh here Siaopeh there D: So , if I'm Siaopeh , you're SiaoBu ! As simple as that ;D And seriously , I don't really know if i've got the time to meet up with you yeah .. Been busy these few days because of army stuff .. Maybe after your "O" Levels ? See first alright ? ;D

That's all for now i suppose . My life's just this simple .. Audition , Army , Dota . Sounds meaningless huh ? Well , i feel that way .. I've got no life ;D Ever since what happened , It's always been like this . I'll stop here for now . Bye~

Is life getting meaningless for me ?

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-10-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

This new blog song is dedicated to Tammy~ ;D

Anyway , just came back from Bugis .. was with Yiying just now ;D & today's a boring day .. Going to book into camp at 11pm later .. Nothing much to post about . So i'll stop here for now . bye !

I'm not who I'm used to be .

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-29T12:30:00.006+08:00

CRITERIA TO BE MY DESIRED ABSOLUTE GIRLFRIEND

1. Loving
Lols.. this is the most basic criteria all guys wish their girlfriends to have .

2. Understanding
If i can't spend time with you, you have to understand because I'm still in army.. if you don't then forget it .

3. Non-flirts
I seriously hate people who flirt . especially my own girlfriend .

4. Caring
Who doesn't want their girlfriends to care for them? haha .

5. Don't break promises
I won't be happy if my girlfriend makes empty promises to me .

6. No Attitude problem
I won't entertain girls who have attitude problems and always finding trouble, in the end letting me clear the problem .

7. Have trust in me
Once I'm yours, I'll always be yours . You have to trust me on this (:

8. Be honest towards me
Couples should be honest with each other ? So that there won't be any doubts and everything can be settled nicely .

9. Patience
This is normal .. who wouldnt want a patient girlfriend? x:

Everything's not arranged in order. . I just randomly type what i thought . haha :3

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Zhu told me to do this post lol :l Well , My criterias are simple .. but sometimes , finding the right one .. is just not as easy as it seems ... haha ! Anyways , does anyone hit any of the above? :x LOL .

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-27T22:06:00.004+08:00

I never was what i used to be .. the one who was always smiling , cheering people up , encouraging people , being lame , being high with my friends , is gone . I used to think , that everything would be alright , but i was wrong . What had been happening in my life , can never be explained easily with normal words .. I've been through alot , yes I have . People say that being through alot gives more experience in life . Well , you're so wrong ? It demoralizes people , making people feel like it's the end of the world . I'm getting tired .. I really am . I'm still trying to hangon .. i hope that i won't let go ..

even though it's just online .. you've been a great girlfriend (: thank you for being there when i needed someone to accompany me .. thank you for encouraging me .. thank you for the love you've given me .. tammy will always be loved (:

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

Big question marks in my head .. I'm tired.

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-22T19:03:00.004+08:00

Heyo . back to post . been busy audi-ing and dota-ing that i forgot to come back and post ! haha xD anyway .. nothing much .. reporting to army as usual .. playing audi with my loved ---x3QUEEN as usual .. dota-ing with my team as usual .. nothing much to specify lolol . alright i'll stop here for now . bye

sometimes.. online relationships can be more heart warming than real life relationships.. they can understand you.. be there for you.. care for you.. and even last longer than real life relationships.. thank you tammy (: you'll always be loved. and stop saying you're ugly because you're not (: you're a pretty and cute girl. So stay that way alright?

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-14T00:59:00.026+08:00

Just came back from Sentosa with -x gang :D It was Nigel's birthday . Bestie, I'm sorry that i was late for so long . Something cropped up . Anyway, poor bestie's foot got stung by a stupid bee and i killed it with my massive stomp LOL x: Pictues are below !

Pictures!

smile! :D

-x~ family :D

fire! :D Yiying is hiding her face! D:

unglam lol! :D *omg Yiying is trying to kiss th Statue LOL .

unglam again xD *HAHAHA BESTIE'S FACE IS CUT INTO HALF X:

okok we surrender! we set-up that fire! T.T

Poor bestie's foot got stung by that stupid bee which i killed D:

Looks fun right ? :D Then join us! And happy mid-autumn festival all ! Alright, off to camp for duty. Bye !

`Ah_vIN-`

Lately, I had been thinking about you and th times we spent together .. will fate bring us together again (?)

2008-09-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

1. The first person who tagged you is:
Srsly, i forgot LOL .

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
? I FORGOT LAH LOL .

3. Your Five impression of him/her:
STOP ASKING. I SAID I FORGOT LOL .

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
...

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you:
I'm getting pissed LOL .

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
I CAN'T IMAGINE.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she will have to improve on will be:
No idea?

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
idk .

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
Idk .

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Cannot think!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
IDK .

12. How you think people around will feel about you:
I'm practically lame, caring, funny, nice to hang around with? x:

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
Nothing. I actually hate myself :l

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are:
Too much to talk about.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Just myself.

16. For that people who care and like you, say something to them:
Uhh . Thank you (?)

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you, pass to people who have blog only:
1. Huiler
2. Feon
3. Gerald
4. Yiying
5. Yanqi
6. Jesmine
7. Lynette
8. Huiting
9. Huimin
10. Min

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
[Jesmine] I've got no idea . I think no one.

19. Is no.9 female or male?
[Huimin]Female.

20. if no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
[Lynette&Min]Impossible . they dk each other.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
[Feon]In Yishun Secondary School studying those few subjects.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
[Gerald]Quite a long time ago. Sms was yesterday.

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
[Huiting]No idea.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
[Huiler]Brother!

25. Will you woo no.3?
[Gerald]NO NEED. HE'S MY LAOGONG ALRDY LOL.

26. How about no.7?
[Lynette]Impossible. She's my mei!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
IDK LOL :x

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you:
Idk too x:

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
I can't imagine!

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she will have to improve on will be:
No comments x:

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
Piak her upside down LOL.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
No idea.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
PINCH HER PIGLET FACE LOL.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
She's my cute piglet mei LOL.

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I got forced to do this stupid quiz LOL .

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-09-08T19:32:00.004+08:00

Surprise ! Using my officer's laptop to post x: anyway, i'll be out tomorrow .. and i guess I'll be a changed person as well .. alot has happened . People whom i would like to thank cuz they accompanied me through when i was alone during confinement even though some of you replied rarely:

-Yiying
-Feon
-Huimin
-Huiler
-Hiro
-Nessa
-MeiEn
-zHu
-Kim
-Jeanette
-YanQi

Thank you . I wouldn't have pulled through without your support, care & concern . Especially during th time when i had tubes through my hands -.-! I'm fine now i suppose . Hope to see you all soon after i get out of confinement . Ler bestie , i would like to thank you the most (: You've never failed to be there for me . I can understand that you seldom replied now because of your bill, and you've been busy studying . But whatever it is , thank you , thank you , thank you . ily bestie .

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-31T20:03:00.003+08:00

Today's the last day . Mood ? I don't know how to explain . I've been trying to cheer myself up with this quote "Only with faith , you can see the light of hope and happiness." I'll just wish that this sentence is true . Dumbdumb , Ler bestie , your "N" levels are coming .. do me proud okays ? :D And when I'm back , I'll give you 2 a treat :3 When I'm back which i don't know when . Ler bestie , i know you're sad even though you're not showing it . Don't be , i promised i'll be back , and i will (: wait for me okays ? And always remember our trade mark ! hahahaha ! Okays , Take care all . Goodbye .

`Ah_vIN-` - Dumby

2008-08-30T08:46:00.012+08:00

It's been awhile since I lost posted .. So .. Here I am? The new songs in my blog means alot to me .. These few days had been bitter-sweet for me .. haah . So much has happened .. I was sad but happy at the same time .. why ? I don't really know the real answer myself .. Anyway .. Ler bestie . Nigel and dumbdumb(: thanks for spending time with me these few days .. I've been happy . I really have . Time's running short .. I know .. that's why you're trying to cheer me up .. It's ok .. I'm not sad ! haah ! I'm happy . Alright .. pictures shall be updated once she sends it to me .. bye .. and take care all . Tomorrow's my last day ..

`Ah_vIN` - Dumby

I had to lie to my family where i was going .. I just told them i'll be gone for a long time . Due to army stuff .. The pain of leaving .. the tears i shed .. the stress i had .. the pain in my body.. the suspected "sickness" i have .. it'll all be gone .. soon .

Nice pic? x:

2008-08-24T20:02:00.010+08:00

Okay.. Bestie ler forgave me.. (: now it's just left with one person.. I'll stop here. bye

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-24T17:10:00.005+08:00

This quote, is dedicated to all my friends, especially huimin bestie and Ler bestie.

"Till death do us part" applies to marriage - and friendship .! So stop saying thank you when it's my job to be there for anyone of you when you're feeling down or sad . Especially when we're best friends. Okay? Love you guys! :3

Fucked up day. First i don't know if I'm going to lose a best friend, now my family kpkb over one lousy computer. WTF IS THIS? EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG? DIE BETTER LOR?

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-24T09:53:00.003+08:00

Yosh . Hi all . I'm back to post.~ Sorry for not updating uhh :D Had been busy meeting friends and working haha :3

Thursday

Didn't do much, went to camp as usual and slacked the whole day because i was alone ! HAHA . SLEEP THE WHOLE DAY FTW ! LOL . Actually no luh .. was smsing Ler bestie :3 discussing what we were going to do on Friday~ After that, her battery went flat , so we stopped smsing and i continued slacking till 5.30pm x: went home, bath and slack again x:

Friday

Went to camp as usual again ! It was a fun day yeah ? First, my sir treated me lunch, then he joked with me the whole day~ After that was smsing Feon that dumb dumb , BHB keep saying herself cute LOL . After that smsed Ler bestie where we're meeting to watch fireworks XD! And i tell you, the fireworks WERE NICE . If only i had someone there with me.. haha.. anyways, the pictures will be updated as soon as ler bestie send me the pics LOL . After watching the fireworks with pigeon, boon, jack, liang, nigel and ler bestie, we went looking for fooood . i was famished!! In the end there was nothing to eat.. so we bus-ed back to yishun for dinner x,x! which was around 12am LOL . After dinner , sent ler bestie home with nigel, and nigel walked me home also ;D Reached home, slacked . and finally, i can sleep! LOL .

Saturday

Nothing much to post about because i was doing duty the whole day . Thanks Feon who accompanied me the whole day via SMS . haha :3

Alright, i'll end here. BYE .

`Ah_vIN-` the Dumby as said by Feon =.=

2008-08-20T18:27:00.003+08:00

Okays. Time to step out of the sadness, and face this beautiful world again :3 I've got people who cares for me, so why should I disappoint them? :D Find a new love? I'll think about it =\ Bestie ler! Thanks for always being there for me when i was down.! I treasure our friendship alot uh :3 Bestie min! Even though we have small fights at times, i know you care for me too :D thanks alot uh ! Jeannette! Thanks for always accompanying me through the night :3 Sorry for bullying you uh :D treasure the friendship that we have too . Lynette aka piglet mei! Miss you luh. Meet up soon yeah? And thanks for your words too :3 Feon! Your words really made me think alot.. thank youuuuuu.! Meet up soon yeah? To those who i missed out, really sorry because there really are alot of names to be mentioned. Thanks to all of you! I'll at least treasure myself first. No worries yeah? Friends of mine all PBT LOLLLLLLLLL ღ. k byeee!

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

Day 5

Feeling better each day.. I'll keep the memories deep in my heart (: Even though i still miss you, as long as you're happy, i will be too :D

Randoms

Ohhhh yeah. Still feeling tired cuz I've slept less than 12 hours since friday =\ Still trying to sleep though, so no worries x: JEANNETTE, PREPARE TO BE WET TONIGHT. HAHAHAHAHA. LET'S SEE WHO HITS THE WATER FIRST YOU SHORTEH~ anyway, September is coming.. I'm left with less than 2 months ): Who can spend time with me eh~? Build me up again please x: okays, i'll stop here! Byeeeee . AND STOP SPAMMING ME LOL . I'M GONNA BE REVENGEFUL U PEEPS ;D

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-18T18:39:00.003+08:00

Day 4

I really hope that it's true I'm starting to get over you.. But even if we can't be couples, can't we stay as friends? I mean, why go to the extent that you still want to ignore me and all? I didn't do anything to anger you did I? Nevermind.. Just take care of yourself and be happy.. As long as you are, I will be too :D

To all my precious friends

Heyo! I'm feeling better already.. thanks for the patience and the care you all showered on me yeah? I won't forget them :3 Besties! Sorry for making you 2 worried uh (: Especially Ler, thanks for being there when I really needed someone to talk to :D Forever friends uh! x: And Feon, sorry =\ that's all i can say.. It's my fault that i opened my mouth.. And everything started.. Michelle, I know you tried cheering me up. Thanks alot :D Jeanette, U BLOODY SHORTIE LOL x: yeah thanks to you too.. to think that you can come out in the middle of the night just to cheer me up o: thanks mienxzxz haha :D! Keep in contact okays? Hiro, your words have enlightened me too (: YO YIYING. thanks to you too ahhh :D you've tried cheering me up too. thanks x7861563216941 LOL . Anyone else i missed out? x:

To her

I'm sorry that I've hurt you. I'm really not the guy for you.. Please, don't cry for me. I'm sure that there's someone else out there, who deserves the love okay? Because, I seriously don't make a good boyfriend (: Don't worry, we can still stay as friends, and when you need someone to talk to, feel free to come to me alright? I promise I'll do my best if it's within my limits. Take care of yourself.. don't do anything for me anymore, or else i don't know how to repay them haha .

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-17T15:51:00.004+08:00

Just some random post.

Thanks people.. I really appreciate your care.. I'll be fine after awhile i guess.. And Feon, here's a post for you (: Thanks alot for talking to me. I felt better after the conversation over msn.. I know you're also trying to talk some sense into me. I appreciate it.. I'll think it through okays? (:

To a certain someone:
I'm sorry.. You're a great girl.. I'm sure you can find someone better than me (: I'm not worth it for you to wait. I don't do a good boyfriend (: Wish you all the best in finding your real Mr. Right. Take care.

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-08-17T08:09:00.003+08:00

Day 3

It's been 3 days since our break up.. I really can't stop thinking about you.. I really can't let go of everything, and forget what I've done for you.. I'm suffering.. I can't eat well, sleep well, and i'm crying silently every night.. I'm not removing the her from my wishlist.. because you'll be my last.. and i mean what i say.. it was a promise to you, and a commitment for myself. I'm never going to break that promise.. Even though we broke up.. It doesn't mean that I can't stop loving you.. and just give up.. I won't. even if it means that i'm lying to myself, or hurting myself. I don't care.. Take care.. I won't forget you..

`Ah_vIN-`
says that 29o6o8 is a date that will never be forgotten by him, and the memories with her will always stay in him. He says that he enjoyed the times he spent with her.. and he has never regretted loving her. He made a promise to himself, that she, Wong Huiting Siti Zuraidah, will be the last girl in his life.. no matter what happens. If alvin breaks this promise, he will die a horrible death. And he apologises to everyone he has hurt during this time.. He thanks everyone from the bottom of his heart for being there for him, for being worried for him.. He will never push his friends away anymore. Take care.

2008-08-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

Can someone just tell me what's wrong. What's wrong with me? and what's wrong with my life? why is it so screwed? Dear, can you just tell me what is wrong? You even changed your blog link without even letting me know. why? Why are you doing this to me? Haven't I been patient enough? Haven't I done enough? Why are you hurting me like this? Can you just tell me something instead of keeping quiet and ignoring me? I beg you? PLEASE?

`Ah_vIN-`
says that 29o6o8 is a date that will never be forgotten by him, and the memories with her will always stay in him. He says that he enjoyed the times he spent with her.. and he has never regretted loving her. He made a promise to himself, that she, Wong Huiting Siti Zuraidah, will be the last girl in his life.. no matter what happens. If alvin breaks this promise, he will die a horrible death. And he apologises to everyone he has hurt during this time.. He thanks everyone from the bottom of his heart for being there for him, for being worried for him.. He will never push his friends away anymore. Take care.

2008-08-13T18:26:00.008+08:00

Sometimes, people say it's never too late to notice.. it's never to late to salvage something which is done.. but on my case.. I don't know if it's too late for anything.. Guys, this post is to tell you all, that I'll be gone for 2 months.. from october all the way to december.. I guess i wouldn't be able to spend my birthday with my friends this year.. I'm sorry. I'll miss you guys though (: And i'll miss her. lots. And I hope that before October comes, I can spend more time with you all.. I'm sorry for saying those hurtful things.. I was too agitated.. I love you guys.. thanks for being there for me..

Dear, even though I don't know what's happening now, but I just want you to be happy.. I don't know what's going to happen between us.. And i'm sorry for everything i did.. But, i just want you to know, that I love you. I've always did, and the feeling will never fade away. The 2 months will be long.. very long.. I'll miss you in between those months.. The only thing I'm wishing for now.. is that everything's going to be fine again.. And that before October, if it's possible.. to spend time with me.. I guess there isn't much for me to say anymore.. Goodbye, I'll love you no matter what happens in the future and I want you to know, I've never regretted loving you.. And i've enjoyed the times i spent with you.. 29o62oo8, the date that has been carved deeply in both my mind, and my heart.

Remember this? I meant what i said.. i really did..

Even though you're the youngest among all my ex girlfriends, you're the one i know i treasure the most, because you made a great impact in my life.. you changed me.. You're really different from them.. your thinkings and all.. its's so different.. and you're the 1st girl to let me have this special feeling that i really want to be there for you.. you're the 1st that i wrote a letter to despite an injured hand.. and you're the 1st who made me worry so much, and did so much to save a relationship.. I'm saying all these to you now because.. i want you to know that you've already became a part of my life.. and you're really important to me.. That i care for you.. and i want to be there for you.. ily dear (:

`Ah_vIN-`
says that 29o6o8 is a date that will never be forgotten by him, and the memories with her will always stay in him. He says that he enjoyed the times he spent with her.. and he has never regretted loving her. He made a promise to himself, that she, Wong Huiting Siti Zuraidah, will be the last girl in his life.. no matter what happens. If alvin breaks this promise, he will die a horrible death. And he apologises to everyone he has hurt during this time.. He thanks everyone from the bottom of his heart for being there for him, for being worried for him.. He will never push his friends away anymore. Take care.

2008-08-11T18:34:00.011+08:00

Today was okay i guess.. nothing much to do during work.. but i overheard the conversation betwn my sir and my other officer about me.. it seems that it came earlier than expected? I rly don't wish to go .. But what's done is done .. Oh yeah . yesterday went biking with zhu, ler, boon and min. Had alot of fun i guess.. but watching huimin and zhu so happy tgt , a thought just shot through my mind about .. lols nvm (: anyways after reaching Jln Kayu, we had our dinner, rest awhile. and biked back.. overall, enjoyed it even though i was abit low on mood. Ah well, hope to have more outings with them i guess. *especially you dear D: you don't know how much i'm missing you ): And LOLLLLLLLLL. Dear cutest n chioest uh :D JES AND LYNETTE. SHOO AWAY WOOT X: K BYE LOL.

`Ah_vIN-`
-Even though it's just a small gesture,
-Even though it's just a small meaning,
-Because of you,
-Everything's just so extraordinary..
-ღ 29o6o8

2008-08-09T01:56:00.004+08:00

Had quite a fun day today.. Went for -x and -KNS- bbq gathering.. haha.. Met up with dear too :3 even though we had a little small fight, i'm sorry uh dear =\ didn't mean to piss you off~ i wasn't really in a good mood myself.. haha..anyway.. after the bbq, me, ler, zhu, nigel and dongua sat under the shed to slack.. talked alot lol! It's been awhile since we had so much fun together huh? :D After slacking, zhu wanted to go over to my house but in the end went to bran's x: So I went home, and then took a cab over to a friend's house ~ getting something from him x: Okays I'll stop here.! Dear, this new blog song is for you lawl x:

`Ah_vIN-`
-Even though it's just a small gesture,
-Even though it's just a small meaning,
-Because of you,
-Everything's just so extraordinary..
-ღ 29o6o8

2008-08-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

Dear, I'm sorry.. I really am.. Please forgive me.. I really didn't mean to do it.. hais..

`Ah_vIN-`
-Even though it's just a small gesture,
-Even though it's just a small meaning,
-Because of you,
-Everything's just so extraordinary..
-ღ 29o6o8

2008-08-06T04:58:00.006+08:00

Just some random post.

Wow, i'm actually posting something 5am in the morning x,x Anyway, yesterday was a busy day.. Spent almost the whole day trying to fix so many things till my back hurts.. luckily there was some medicine i could take.. After camp, went to meet dear.. & the 1st thing i thought when i saw her was.. "Wow I missed you".. But when she walked out with that pale face, my thoughts got erased in just one second. Anyways, I hope you're feeling better dear (: It isn't nice to see you looking sick x,x! And cheer up.. I said before no matter what happens I'll walk it through with you right? (: So after sending dear to take bus home, i went down to woodlands to collect this new computer.. Finally i can use computer at home again :D Sighz, going back to camp in another 1 hour or so.. These few days going to camp is nightmare.. counting down.. I don't know when that fateful day's going to come.. i really don't wish to go because I don't want to leave her side.. but what else can I do..? Oh well, i guess I'll stop here for now! & the song suits my mood these few weeks.. =\
*P.S. Stupid Sister-in-law, here's your post larh. Thank you Lynette for talking to me too (: appreciate your help. And stop self - praising, it's bad for health LOL.

`Ah_vIN-`
-Even though it's just a small gesture,
-Even though it's just a small meaning,
-Because of you,
-Everything's just so extraordinary..
-ღ 29o6o8

2008-08-03T13:58:00.009+08:00

Dear.. here's a little something i want to tell you.. and you MUST read this. =\

Even though you're the youngest among all my ex girlfriends, you're the one i know i treasure the most. You're really different from them.. your thinkings and all.. its's so different.. and you're the 1st girl to let me have this special feeling that i really want to be there for you.. you're the 1st that i wrote a letter to despite an injured hand.. and you're the 1st who made me worry so much, and did so much to save a relationship..

I'm saying all these to you now because.. i want you to know that you've already became a part of my life.. and you're really important to me.. That i care for you.. and i want to be there for you.. ily dear (:

*P.S. HI JESMINE. THR U WNTED A POST ABT YOU. AND I DID LOL. Thanks for listening to my talking x: Appreciate it alot :D There! It's more than 3 lines for you in my post. MWAHAHA. LOL!
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`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-08-02T18:29:00.003+08:00

Yo.. I'm back to post haha. surprised why i can come online? o: i'm at -KNS-Dongua's house wahaha x: Dear, i saw your post.. Cheer up k? Smile for me. remember the sms i sent you this afternoon? whenever you feel down take out the letter.. haha! It'll be as good as me being there for you. =P Ily :D kk i'll stop here for now.. byeeee !

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

Today was a bad day lol. But anyway. HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEARR :D Don't forget what you promised me today uhh :D ily!

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-26T13:05:00.004+08:00

Over at my friend's house now.. Computer's dead.. trying to save it. Mood, same i guess. Just waiting.. Yesterday was a really bad day.. went for some cohesion and got myself abit drunk as my Sir wanted me to drink x,x.. had headache and dizzyness when i went to meet zhu, ler and nigel.. train-ed ler to Eunos with them then went back with nigel.. went home.. and same old things are repeating. Already numb so i didn't care much.. just locked myself in my room and waited for time to pass. Getting really tired.. so tired..

Counting down 4 days~ mwahaha ily dear!

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-24T18:49:00.004+08:00

No one understands what I'm really going through now.. but who cares anyway.. and i don't even know what he said is true or not. Oh well.. i guess i'll just have to wait and see? Nth much. just a short post. Bye :3

Counting down 5 days~ wee :x ily dear.

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

Is this it? is there nothing i can do to prevent it from happening? At least listen to my explanations before making a decision? But if that's what you want.. then i guess i can't do anything anymore but wait.. and wait.. and wait.. for that day to come? But one thing is for sure. If you're going to send me in, you're going to destroy my future. P.S. If something does happen, dear.. please don't be sad.. i'll always love you even if i'm at the other corner of the world.. ily :3

2008-07-23T19:11:00.002+08:00

Dearr.. this song is from me to you (: listen to it. ily~

Counting down 6 days~ ily baby :3

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-22T09:40:00.003+08:00

しなければならない決して私たちの夢の継続を断念する ღ

Counting down 7 days.. hang in there dear.. ily..

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-21T21:03:00.007+08:00

I'm not giving up on us dear... and i hope you wont either.. i know that you're under alot of stress because of your family.. but why can't you let me be there for you..? You told me you love me.. you told me you do have feelings for me.. you told me that you're happy.. then please trust me.. All i need is your trust.. let me into your heart... let me be the key.. I just want you to be happy.. and feel loved.. that's all i ask for.. its that simple.. please dear.. don't lock me out.. i really do love you.. the promises i made to you.. till now its still not broken.. and I'm serious.. that you'll be my last.. and i'll be yours.. All that's needed is just the trust.. that determination.. fight the darkness dear.. let me be your light.. let me guide you out of your sadness.. please.. ily & i won't stop loving till the day i have my breathe my last..

It's just 8 more days.. hang in there.. ily..

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-19T10:39:00.004+08:00

You have perfect imperfections.

There's no need to make corrections.

I'll be here to mend your life, and to take away the knife.

Each time you confront the darkness, I'll be there to give you light.

If the idea of crying gets you spellbound, I'll be the one lending you the shoulder.

If you plan on giving up, I'll be right there to give you hope.

If the thoughts tempt you, I'll be there to snap you out of it.

Mixing chemicals to take more than sips? I'll make sure they don't even touch your lips.

I'll kiss you softly and hold you near, and whisper I love you in your ear.

I'll be there for you if it's the last thing I do, because you know I really do love you.

Wong Huiting Siti Zuraidah, ily and always rmb tht ill always be here for you (:

Counting down 10 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-19T09:40:00.002+08:00

Song 2 lyrics - Yume no Tsuduki e

kumo no sukima koboreru mabushii hodo no hikari niyowasa misukasare sou de fui ni te wo kazashita

urayamu dake de itsumo akirameta furi wo shitaomoi ga abareru kara mata boku wo mayowaseru

kuyashikutatte hito wa dare mo minnasono ashi de susumu shika nain da yosamayotte nayande sonna jibun mote ni suru mirai wa donna katachi darou

kowashite shimae jyama suru fuan wokudaite shimae nigirishimeta te desono itami kizande souta tobikomeowarinaki yume no tsuzuki e

shinjitsu wo shiru hodo ni miushinai sou nandajibun no erabu michi ga tadashii no ka douka sae
akaruku furimau tabi samishi sa mo yoko kiru yohonto no boku wa ima donna kao wo shiteru
kanshikutatte hito wa doushiyo mo nakunani ka motome sagashi tsuzuketerusou yatte mo gaite kitto sore demote ni suru mirai wo kiri akun darou

mayoikon datte tachitomarani dedoko ka de kitto tsunagatteru karanigenai de kibou ni sotto fureyouowarinaki yume no tsuzuki de

hishin ni mamori nuiteru monomuda ni fukuran da PURAIDO mokono zani zenbu sasutetemirebaiisoshite mata hajimetemiru yo

kuyashikutatte hito wa dare mo minnasono ashi de susumu shika nain da yosamayotte nayande sonna jibun mote ni suru mirai wa donna katachi darou

kowashite shimae jyama suru fuan wokudaite shimae nigirishimeta te desono itami kizande souta tobikomehonto wa motto jibun wo shinjiterun darouowarinaki yume no tsuzuki e

Bwehehe. I love my blog songs :B

Counting down 10 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-18T21:32:00.002+08:00

As a boyfriend, watching you like this makes me feel helpless. And it really pierces my heart.

Counting down 11 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-15T21:19:00.003+08:00

Mood: Tired

Tomorrow halfday.. Got some things to do after camp.. Friday celebration till 9.30pm omg x,x anways. Kinda happy today :3 Met up with dear after camp. and guess what, she bus-ed 4 stops after my camp LOL. I was seriously laughing. dear blur sotong x: After that, went to northpoint with dear and Michelle to slack off. Sent dear home and took this wonderful pic x: I love you luhh dear :333 & i'll always be here for youuuuuu.! Please do tell me if there's anything k? muah muah!

Counting down 14 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-13T19:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY B'DAE LYNETTE MEI :D MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUEEEE~

Counting down 16 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-10T22:00:00.001+08:00

I miss her & i miss her.. ~ ):

Counting down 19 days~

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-07T19:48:00.004+08:00

Mood: Extremely highxzxzxz-

Was spending the whole dayyyyy sms-ing dear today~ and guess what.. I've got a horneh gf! LOL! Horneh + blur + sotonq + bamboo stick + sugar cane + qonq qonq ROFL x: But whatever it is. She's loved by me~ :D Can't wait to meet you again luhhh tootsie ); Miss you soooooo muchxzxz- Anyway, it was a tiring day for me too.. Was sweating like mad x: Climbing up and down doing this and that~ tsk. And I'm falling sickkkk omg D: Coughs and flu =\ Ah well.. I'll stop here for now~ byeeeee

Counting down 22 days~ :3

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-05T20:15:00.007+08:00

Mood: No words can describe what I'm feeling now.

Fucked up day? Yeah, that's the word to describe it. Nice going "team", you made me drop out just to let someone else play when i was the one who should be playing. Retards. Bye.

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-04T11:34:00.005+08:00

Mood: Dead tired x,x

Hey! Sorry for not posting.. wasn't at home for a couple of days.. Was outside preparing for my dota competition.. and in the end, i didn't sleep for 2 straight days omt x,x! Anyways, went to meet up with dear yesterday to pass her the presents i promised her. Hope you like them dear (: I want nothing else but for you to be happy.. that's all. Went home to audi.. and guess wht. WE'RE MARRIED :D and it was on the first try haha. I'm like so happy (: waited for sooooo long to couple her and marry her. And my wish came true xD. I'll always love you tootsie ~ and never let you go =P. Huiting will always be lovedddddd!~ Alright i'll stop posting for now. BYE!

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-07-01T18:27:00.003+08:00

Lynette asked me to do this quiz lol x,x

Name 20 people you could think of right now .
Do not start reading until you've name out .

1.Gerald
2.Lynette
3.Huimin
4.Claryl
5.Huiting
6.Yanqi
7.Yiying
8.Hazel
9.Huiwen
10.Chong min
11.Huiler
12.Joseph
13.Jeremiah
14.Muhammad
15.Jiasheng
16.TinHo
17.Yilok
18.Alan
19.Aiying
20.Jesmine

How did you meet 14?
Army lol x:

What if 9 and 20 dated?
They're not les.. so impossible x:

Would 6 and 17 date?
same answer as the top one. x:

Describe 3.
My bestie, cute, hamster looking, friendly, alot of good things about her x:

Is 8 attractive?
uhh.. can i don't answer this question? x:

Describe 7.
A good friend (:

Know any of 12's family members?
Not really =

What would you do if 18 confess his/her love to you?
OH PLEASE. I'm not a gay D: so no. way.

What language does 15 speaks?
english n chinese x:

Who is 9 going out with?
she's single x:

When is the last time you spoke to 13?
This afternoon! :D

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?
no idea ._.

Would you ever date 4?
no because i've already got my best date ever (:

Would you ever date 1?
Maybe? Cuz he's my laogong lol! x:

Is 19 single?
Nope, she's attached.

What's 10's last name?
Sam Lai ChongMin :D

Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
As i said, i've already got my best lover x:

Where does 6 lives?
SENGKANG :D!

What's your favourite thing about 5?
everything ღ ! , mwahahaha xD

Have you seen 2 naked?
noooo of course not -.-!

Kinda fun i guess x:

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-06-30T19:25:00.004+08:00

Had a really long day today.. lost the mood in everything since yesterday night.. I've lost a good friend, and i guess it's my fault too that i spoilt a nice relationship.. Perhaps i just suck as a friend? I don't know. I feel like giving up already.. it seems that whatever i do, it's wrong wrong WRONG. Anyway.. met up with tootsie and lynette today after work.. tootsie was cute as always (: always making my day better when i'm feeling kinda dark, and lynette.. well.. yeah she's cute too but my tootsie's cuter x: sent tootsie home, came home, bathed and rotted.. and some nerd went to tootsie's blog to spam her.. whoever you are, if you're unhappy with me, just come to me. Not my girl. coward. And tootise, you'll always be loved (:

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-06-29T19:51:00.004+08:00

Ugly, chio, thin, fat. As long as you're my tootsie, you'll always be loved (:
ღ 29o6o8.

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Kk I'm done spamming. :D

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-06-29T14:14:00.003+08:00

HOHO. I'M BACK TO BLOG. Sorry abit high lately.. alot of good things are happening (: Anyway, yesterday went out with tootsie, cookie, siaoboi and his friend. Was at CWP to watch the incredible hulk. After the movie, cookie went home.. and zhu said he wanted to come find us.. so we waited for him. After he arrived, went to the Pasar Malam with zhu to get something to eat.. they were eating by the roadside like some uncle or banglah worker LOL. After eating, i sent tootsie home.. then went out to rot x: Came home this morning.. smsed tootsie.. and guess what.. EVERY MONTH OF THIS DAY SHALL BE VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME x: You all should get what i'm trying to say :D Alright i'll stop here for now. Byeeeee

`Ah_vIN-`
-ღ 29o6o8
-I'll live and love you with all my heart
-I love you tootsie (:

2008-06-27T19:48:00.003+08:00

sad-die-me. Shall go audi and rot. Alright bye.

Outing tomorrow @ woodlands. Meet at 1pm. Those who can make it just give me a call tomorrow. Events might be watching movie. Bye.

`Ah_vIN-`
-loves tootsie (;
-today's a fcked up day
-i'm gna go rot

2008-06-26T20:25:00.002+08:00

Another boring day again.. was rotting all the way till 6.30pm. Once again, tootsie called me in the afternoon to accompany me and prevent me from rotting~ Thanks tootsie.. (: Chatted halfway and got chased away by her for god-knows-what-reason. LOL. After the conversation, rotted for around 3 hours.. then bus-ed home, bath, audition-ed awhile and called tootsie again~ She sounded so moody.. didn't know the reason.. but tootsie, don't think so much and be so moody or sad anymore.. I don't want to see you sad nor moody.. I want you to be happy~ So.. If there's anything you need to say or let out, I'll always be here for you okay? (: I'll stop here for today.. Bye!

`Ah_vIN-`
-i love my tootsie and i'll always be here for you (:

2008-06-25T21:23:00.003+08:00

Super tiring but happy day today :D! Was alone in my office for the whole day x,x Luckily there was tootsie to chat with me (; She complained about playing on the swings at Lynette's house and getting her butt all numb LOL. I laughed at that really x: Then when i reached home, played maple awhile.. and went to audition with bestie and tootsie :D. And guess what! ME AND TOOTSIE FINALLY COUPLED!! -highxzxzxzxz. I LOVE MY TOOTSIE LUH x: alright i'll stop here for now. bye!

`Ah_vIN-`
-i love my tootsie x:

2008-06-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to my Huiting (;

J'ay desiré cent fois me transformer,
et d'estreUn espirit invisible, afin de me cacher
Au fond de vostre coeur, pour l'humeur rechercher
Qui vous fait contre moy si cruelle apparoistre.

Si j'estois dedans vous, au moins je serois maistre
De l'humeur qui vous fait contre l'Amour pecher,
Et si n'auriez ny pouls, ny nerfs dessous la chair,
Que je ne recherchasse à fin de vous cognoistre.

Je s¸aurois maugré vous et voz complexions,
Toutes voz volontez, et voz conditions,
Et chasserois si bien la froideur de voz veins,

Que les flames d'amour vous y allumeriez:
Puis quand je les voirrois de son feu toutes pleines,
Je me referois homme, et lors vous m'aimeriez.

`Ah_vIN-`
-Let me be th one to let you trust in love again..
-Let me be th one to build up your confidence with you..
-Let me be th one to be by your side when you're down..
-Let me be th one to let you experience love again..
-Let me be th one to love you (:

2008-06-22T21:28:00.004+08:00

You don't believe that I'll spam your name in my blog post right..? When you're back from ATC this post will show you how real i meant :D

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LOL! There.. i showed how real i meant XD.

`Ah_vIN-`
-Let me be th one to let you trust in love again..
-Let me be th one to build up your confidence with you..
-Let me be th one to be by your side when you're down..
-Let me be th one to let you experience love again..
-Let me be th one to love you (:

2008-06-22T12:07:00.003+08:00

This is one of the best jokes ever. Read it LOL.

A man was drinking in a bar when he noticed this beautiful young lady sitting next to him. "Hello there," says the man, "and what is your name?"

"Hello," giggles the woman, "I'm Stacey. What's yours?"

"I'm Jim."

"Jim, do you want to come over to my house tonight? I mean, right now??"

"Sure!" replies Jim, "Let's go!"

So Stacey takes Jim to her house and takes him to her room. Jim sits down on the bed and notices a picture of a man on Stacey's desk. "Stacey, I noticed the picture of a man on your desk," Jim says.

"Yes? And what about it?" asks Stacey.

"Is it your brother?"

"No, it isn't, Jim!" Stacey giggles. Jim's eyes widen, suspecting that it might be Stacey's husband.

When he finally asks, "Is it your husband?"

Stacey giggles even more, "No, silly!" Jim was relieved.

"Then, it must be your boyfriend!"

Stacey giggles even more while nibbling on Jim's ear. She says, "No, silly!!"

"Then, who is it?" Jim asks.

Stacey replies, "That's me BEFORE my operation!!"

LMFAO. NICE RITE? :D

`Ah_vIN-`
-Let me be th one to let you trust in love again..
-Let me be th one to build up your confidence with you..
-Let me be th one to be by your side when you're down..
-Let me be th one to let you experience love again..
-Let me be th one to love you (:

2008-06-22T11:38:00.007+08:00

She doesn't know if it's right for me to be her lover,
Did i make myself look like a silly chipmunk?
Will she ever give me the chance,
To show her the true meaning of romance?
I hope one day she will see,
That her and i could be meant to be.
I know that you're confused,
But you seem like someone i could lean to.
You are very loving,
Everything you say is like you read my mind.
I hope that you will take the time,
To try the chance of being mine.
I promise to show you love so deep,
You will think you're dreaming in your sleep.
But until that day is met,
"I don't know" is the saying i will always fret.

`Ah_vIN-`
-Let me be th one to let you trust in love again..
-Let me be th one to build up your confidence with you..
-Let me be th one to be by your side when you're down..
-Let me be th one to let you experience love again..
-Let me be th one to love you (:

2008-06-22T10:08:00.008+08:00

Hey~! back to post again (: It'll be a boring day today for those who knows where I am *coughs! Anyway.. I spent the whole night chatting with Huimin bestie instead because someone left me alone T_T. Sotong Huiting.~ told you i'll call you last night.. In the end you fell asleep D: Haha.. x: nevermind.. you're tired anyway..

& for those who know where I am today.. please call me and chat or i'll really rot D: *hinting on the sotong cuz IMY x: Alright.. there's nothing much for me to post today.. So i'll stop here. bye!

`Ah_vIN-`
-Let me be th one to let you trust in love again..
-Let me be th one to build up your confidence with you..
-Let me be th one to be by your side when you're down..
-Let me be th one to let you experience love again..
-Let me be th one to love you (:

2008-06-18T17:55:00.007+08:00

WORLD CYBER GAMES

Category : DOTA All-Stars
Date : 3rd July 08 - 6th July 08
Time : 10am onwards
Venue : Funan The IT Mall
Team : xQr Nova

Hey people.. My competition date has finally been published on the newspapers today... I really hope that you all can make it there to support me.. Thanks and wish me luck (:

`Ah_vIN-`
-nervous mood x,x

2008-06-17T22:28:00.003+08:00

Mood : -_-

Back to post.. Was a superbly tiring day today -.-!! and i almost died of bordem in camp too.. luckily my saviour Huiting was sms-ing me.. If not I'll seriously rottttttttttttt in the stupid room. LOL! After one long boring day, went to meet up with zHu, Nigel, Huiler, Huiting, Huimin, Poopy, TingTing, Summer and Pure.. They were prawn fishing before i arrived.. So.... when i came, said hi to everyone, got ignored by Huiting T.T! She claimed that she didn't hear that i said hi.. Well, next time, I'm going to stand infront of you, look into your eyes and say hi x:

After slacking in the park, we went for dinner.. and Huiting left halfway because her mum's going to nag her if she doesn't go home.. sms-ed her while she was on the way home.. and guess what. She said i looked short in my army uniform.. I was like what the heck?! It should make me look taller not shorter? And i ran around asking the rest of the gang if it was true.. by the way Huiting.. Admit it!! You're shorter than meeeee! No way I'm going to let you grow taller than me because you're cute the way you are now x: Bwehehehe.. if you don't believe me, trying standing beside me you tootie x:

Reached a Coffee shop and we had dinner there.. And it was a funny one.. summer, pure and min were complaining the food sucks lol x: And zhu kept shooting Nigel that he's very "Bitchy". LOL. After the dinner. Nigel, Huiler, zHu and min sent me home.. thanks peeps. Hope to have another outing soon :D! Okay i have to go now.. bye!

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-06-16T21:17:00.002+08:00

It's been a hot and tiring day. So i'll make it short.. Today just got moved to another working place.. new faces.. new boss.. Oh well.. Maybe I'm too hardworking that's why they wanted me to go over there to help x: Anyways.. chatted with huiting on the phone for the very first time last night.. Feeling that i got from the conversation? Superbly funny x: Enjoyed it! P.S. We should chat more often LOL.! And I'm thinking of going back to Audition.. It seems i can't get away from the clutches of audi tsk.! Alright.. nothing more to post about.. Bye!

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-06-11T18:52:00.004+08:00

Hey~ it's been awhile since i last posted huh.. Sorry about that.. was kind of busy with work haha. Anyways, there's an outing to Pulau Ubin this saturday with my friends (: It should be fun i guess. Just wanna get out of the city and enjoy some nature breeze. As well as to go there and forget some stuff haha. Alright.. I'll post again soon (: bye

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-24T11:28:00.008+08:00

I'm trying to understand,
Your mind and how you see.
I'm just trying to figure out,
What you want from me.

I live the love you gave me,
And try hard to not complain,
About how I lose everything,
And having nothing to gain.

I stand as tall as I can.
I hold my head up high.
Trying to ignore my thoughts.
My inner desperate cry.

I push myself to my limit,
Even though I won't prevail.
Yet you continue to test me,
Even though I always fail.

I'm not strong enough for pain.
I'm too weak for depression.
I'm tired of trying to win,
With my useless acts of aggression.

I just want you to tell me,
Why I have to be here.
When all I get told is,
"Go and die; I don't want to talk to you anymore; I hate you; Do I look like I fucking care?"
Much more than the three simple magic words.

Why did you make me like this?
With a desire I cannot change.
This feeling that I try to hide,
So I don't feel so strange.

Could you have made me "normal?"
Or just give me more strength to lie?
Just so I don't have to deal,
So I don't want to die.

So what was your reason,
For making me what you see?
Just one question,
What do you want from me..

`Ah_vIN-`
-am i being taken for granted..?

2008-05-11T02:05:00.006+08:00

To think that i can post my postings in my camp LOL! Ok.. My mood has been good so far.. -KNS- has officially been reformed (: And shall start the recruitment scheme very soon.. Hope that it'll be a good kick off for -KNS-! Haha xP I'm now just waiting for time to fly away D: cuz I'll be going home @ 7.30am and i can't seem to fall asleep as i had my afternoon nap LOL x: Oh well, I'll stop here for now! Bye~

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-08T13:36:00.005+08:00

I'm really wondering.. utterly wondering.. if I should reform our old guild -KNS-.. who doesn't miss it..? Seriously speaking? I miss that tag -KNS-, I miss the friends, I miss the times we had, I miss the times we spent together, I miss what I had before in -KNS-.. After so long, I still can't forget the past I had in -KNS-.. I really really feel like reforming her.. She's my second home after all.. Ever since -KNS- closed down.. everything changed.. I don't want things to change anymore.. I'll give myself time to think.. If there are anyone out there who would support me in doing this, I greatly appreciate it.. I know zHu will be angry if I do this.. But trust me.. I got the qualities to manage a guild well now.. I don't care if the old problems come back anymore. I just want -KNS- to be back to it's old self again.. Sorry zHu. Adios.

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-05T20:01:00.004+08:00

It's been a tiring day.. stayed in camp till 7.30pm then can leave D; Had to stay back to finish some work.. And I'm quite confused about what I want in life.. My sir spoke to me about some sensitive things today and.. It really struck me that I'm actually quite lost in my own life? I've got no plans for the future.. I've got nothing in my mind on what i want to do either.. I guess it's time to do some soul searching? =\ And he spoke to me about my relationship life.. I just kept quiet and said nothing. I didn't want to talk about my past anymore.. and now.. gahh I don't know. It seems that I'm really lost.. I think i really need someone to guide me along.. care for me and support me? Oh well.. it's just a fantasy i guess. I'll stop here for now. Bye!

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-04T17:38:00.003+08:00

Mood : Pissed off

Nerd dota friends I've got. Seriously why can't they just understand the meaning of teamwork? Why can't they understand that when you die and your team mate is nearby, it's not their fault but yours because you are being stupid to just dash in there and die? Luckily they're not from my team. Every little thing is your fault.. what the f*ck? I guess i'm never going to play with them ever again. Bunch of noobs =.=" Knthxfornthnerds.

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-04T08:19:00.001+08:00

Back from duty!! Haha. But when I was doing my duty, some things happened.. One of the problems was regarding En.. She was sad because her boyf broke up with her.. zHu called me to ask if i can accompany her with him.. sorry zHu! Was in camp.. can't leave if not I'm gonna get charged for AWOL again x: And En, I'm sorry that I can't accompany you when you're down D; But I'll be praying for you :D Stay happy and cheerful okay? ;P Anyways.. this month will be a very busy month for me D; alot of duties are waiting for me ): But don't worry guys! I'll still find time to accompany all of you!!! It's been a long time since we've last met.. sure do miss you people alot! :D And about Clar's B'day party, I can make it wahahaha! So clar, I'll be there xD. Okays I'll stop here for now~ Sanyonara!

`Ah_vIN-`

2008-05-03T04:53:00.002+08:00

Heya all. Back to post (: Been a tiring day lols.. Had branch cohesion at one of my army friend's house and they forced me to drink alot x.x" But it was fun! We had mahjong session, card session, and the best was BBQ! :D The food was nice!!!! Chicken wings~ chicken fillets~ satay~ otah~ squid~ sweet corn~ sweet potato~ garlic bread~ marshmellows~and alot more lol x: i bet you guys are jealous now HAHA xD! But here comes the bad news.. I've got duty later on and i haven't slept a wink yet LOLS. So.. I guess i'll stop here for now and prepare to go to camp! Bye!!

`Ah_vIN-`

我是小笨蛋

2008-05-01T14:37:00.005+08:00

Hey all.. I've deleted the previous blog due to some personal reasons.. One of them is to forget the past.. and change myself. Those who want to relink jiu relink. Those who don't want to, i won't force you :D
And fyi, i'm back into the duty again.. so i won't be coming online much anymore.. you people out there take care yeah? Alright.. I'll stop here for now! Byez :D

`Ah_vIN-`